Final Major Project: Gallery Visit, 2nd March 2019

Small Town Inertia: JA Mortram

Side Gallery, Newcastle upon Tyne.

I attended the Side Gallery in Newcastle to see the Small Town Inertia Exhibition.

Whilst I had read a great deal about this project prior to the visit I did not expect the impact the imagery and word would have upon me.

I have never attended an exhibition where I have been emotionally affected so much, there were occasions where I was on the verge of tears.

It is perhaps because Mortram really explains through both the words and the imagery very effectively what his subjects are going through, and how they are affected by society both physically and emotionally.

This was a very important exhibition for me to see especially as it is my plan to have words accompanying my imagery to give context to my work.

Each of my images will have a diary entry which addresses not only my struggles with mental health during my journey to my physical diagnosis with Rheumatoid Arthritis but also addresses the struggles that come along with having an invisible disease. Whilst you look OK on the outside no one knows what any individual is going through on the inside.

I feel that by going to see this exhibition I have a clearer view of what I need to do for the public outcome of my FMP.

Final Major Project: Project Development, 22nd February 2019

I’m preparing to get my images professionally printed a digital lab, I really am getting the feel for them. I can see where the images are expressing themselves and also me, I can feel the different feelings in the water and where it is trying to show my glimmers of hope and where the light is trying to show me the way.

It is also very interesting to see how the images are fitting with my diary entries. I haven’t finalised how I am going to show them just yet.

I’m not sure if it is just my subject matter but getting myself outdoors to obtain the images is helping to improve my mood and it is starting to give me purpose again.

I have been carefully researching what I need to advise people in terms of holding my workshop. I want to make it very clear that it is not a medically endorsed workshop I cannot give professional advice and what we will be doing and talking about is not a miracle cure and professional advice should be thought if you are contemplating suicide or have low mood.

When looking at some of the images as I’m preparing for print I am brought back to Mark Rothko especially on the seascape images where there are blocks of colour. The water pattern work also reminds me of Man Ray’s patterns in the dust that were featured in the David Campney Exhibition – A Handful of Dust.

I am keen that my audience understand how the water reflects my emotions and feel this can only be supported from opening a dialogue with me and reading my diary entries.

Final Major Project: Development Photo shoot, 18th February 2019

Location: Blyth Beach

Intent: I knew this was going to be the final shot of my project. We were due a super moon and I had the visual in my head that there would be a breakthrough image – The super moon reflecting onto the sea. It would be representative of the light at the end of the tunnel.

Equipment: Nikon D3300, Tamron 70-300mm with Macro, Tripod, iPhone

Methodology: I spent a good few weeks studying the timings of the super moon, along with fitting this around my work schedule, and also the weather reports. The full affect of the super moon was to be the 19th February, but the weather was not looking to be working with me so I decided to go and get the test shots so I could make sure my equipment and set up was correct. As it turned out, although my lens was the right one for the whole of the project – every single image taken with the same set up – it was not the right one for the night time shoot – I needed to have had a wider angle. That was one lesson learnt! So I took out my trusty iPhone, and took some shots so that I could see the basic set up. So that if the shot worked I can come back the next day with the correct set up for the real event.

Images:

Research: For this shoot I did reading around night time shooting as I knew that this was something that I had never done before so it would be a new challenge to me.

Reflection on the shoot: This was always destined to be the shoot that I struggled the most with. As I had no prior experience of night time shooting. I am really glad that I carried out the research into the moon, and how to shoot at night, although I didn’t get my initial set up right. The saving grace is that I did check the weather and take my iPhone as on the 19th the weather clouded over and we saw nothing of the actual super moon, and I learnt a very valuable lesson of doing your research. What did make me happy though is in my test shot and I do understand that some won’t be happy that I have an iPhone image in my final collection, but I got the shot that I wanted the one I had envisaged and it did feel that on the computer screen, my collection of images for this project was now complete. I did have a level of anxiety as I didn’t predict how spooky the beach is in the pitch black!!! Although I did take a assistant to help me. On a personal level also, I was starting to feel better in myself, which means that my mindful photography journey had helped me, it had been therapeutic, and I was starting to enjoy it again.

References: Teach Yourself Astro Photography magazine

Final Major Project: Venue Visit, 16th February

Spanish City Visit

I went to visit a location for my workshop/exhibition and this was at the newly refurbished Spanish City in Whitley Bay

The room I was hoping to use was right at the front of the building overlooking the sea – which would have been perfect.

A major drawback to the space was that I would not have been able to mount anything to the walls at all. Although I had planned to use large sketchbooks so that my diary entried could be mounted along side like a giant diary – i think this venue would be extremely limiting and they kept changing the times of the room.

Whilst the view from this room is perfect I don’t feel it is the right place for my work.

Final Major Project – Project Development Research – 15th February 2019

Susan Derges

There are several of Derges’ work that I have been able to connect with.

  • Shoreline – 1997-98
  • Waterfall – 1998
  • Ice – 1996-97
  • Atlantic Ocean – 1997
  • River Taw – 1996-98

In the period 1996 – 1998 much of the work appears to be focused on water in some form or another. Whereas Horn and Sugimoto focus on the top of the water Derges work is under the water looking up.

I think this is appealing to my work as sometime you can feel like you are drowning, that you cannot survive, like you won’t ever make it to the surface, and i think it might look like this to an individual under the water.

Whilst I don’t think that this is the intention of the work, to present itself in this way, it is certainly the way that I can link this into my thinking of my project.

Particularly the work with the ice, it looks to me like the light at the end of the tunnel and quite often this is the the hope that will eventuallly lead you our to the light to draw you out of the depths and show you the way to find your way back.

This is one of the reasons that I hope to be able to capture a moonlight image so that on the surface I have a metaphorical light at the end of the tunnel image.

Final Major Project: Group Critique with Paul Clements, 13th February 2019.

There was mostly a positive response and some people to look up:

  • Bernice Abbott
  • Wendy Ewald
  • Milo – Ophelia Under Water to compare with Lee Miller – Daka dead SS Soldier under water
  • Look into Willis Newsome – Arts in Health
  • Try and find a hospital arts fund Edinburgh Royal Infirmary have one so check with the RVI

Project Development: Editing of the Project, 12th February

When I brought together the images that I wanted to use my initial thought was that they couldn’t sit together and say to an audience that this was the story of a single person. Due to the constant light changes and weather changes there was nothing that really linked them together and said this is me!

Through the duration of the course I have always found myself drawn to black and white – I feel that it has more impact.

I decided to put colour and black and white side by side and see how I feel about them – I also took this to tutorial as in my head I knew I was going to go black and white but I think I was seeking confirmation that I was making the correct decision.

I felt that the black and white just had more impact and fitted with what I was trying to say.